i switch the rules

the concept of life captivates me.
today i will go meet a brand new human being that has been living inside my sister for over half a year.
in one moment she will go from being an idea to a reality,
and it fucking blows my mind.
she will eat, sleep, cry, laugh, love, learn, and grow older.
i cannot wait.
we all start out this way,
yet the end result is never the same.


looking in the mirror pains me lately.
i don't recognize the person staring back.
my teeth cut my lips, bruise my tongue, and
the general state of it all is black and blue.

i have no idea what i am talking about
and
i
am
hungry.